My journey and ENGLISH 😱

Assalammualaikum and hi pretty and handsome J

Here’s the entry about my feeling towards ENGLISH *I’m shouting* 🗣

ENGLISH is the hardest subject for me to score A. I don’t know why but it is since I am at primary school. Even though, the others subject also hard to score but ENGLISH is different. Since, everybody can score it well so it a MUST. The story begins here…..

I start with my UPSR. It means when I am standard 6. In one year, there are some examinations before UPSR. At the first exam, I got B for Science and English. After that, still B for Science and English. Then, I am able to change the grade for Science A but still not for English. Trial has coming, gratefully I am able to change the grade for English to become A *phewww*.Alhamdulillah in UPSR, the grade consistent. Which I’m going to say here, English is the last subject to get A. *The struggle is here* 

Next, it was when I’m taking PT3’s exam. The result were so *phewww*. HahahahaXD. Either it was writing or oral. I got both C. HahahahaXD. In Form 3, nothing much to say. I accepted it’s my fault. I think because I always feel sleepy in English class. How can the knowledge enter? Please, don’t be like this all students. Hehehehe. Please, focus in your class. Hahahaha Please, pray for me that I can change my behaviour that always feel sleepy in class. Hehehehe. Besides English, Add math too and biology and sometimes the other subject. Hahahahahaha. Even, during I’m working. Why I always feel sleepy? Hahahahaha *DON’T BE LIKE THIS!!!*

Lastly, of course it is in SPM. I think every exam I got B. It’s either B or B+. Since, I am Form 4 until Form 5. What’s wrong with me? Why I cannot improve? Is it because I feel sleepy again? Oh yes, maybe. Hehehehe You guys know the objective question section? *If you are going to take SPM or SPM leaver you must know* I think I am the only one in my class who always get below than 10 corrects. I don’t know if the real SPM also I got below. Huhuhuhu. The objective is where the section I should get more marks but I always lose marks there. Fortunately, Pn. Wan always teaching us the ‘important imformation’ section I think. Yes, that section I always score without change any words. It was because I am played safe. Hahahaha. It is better than they were going to minus my marks. Hahahaha *be proud of me please for at least that section*. Hihihihihi.

 I want to express my feeling here. Most of my friends were finally able to get A in English during SPM. How can I am not sad? And I think I am the only one in my class who did not get A in English T_T To be honest, I love to learn English but I think English does not like me. Hahahaha. I think I should learn Korean language then. Hahahaha. I’m making joke. Please, laugh. *krikkrikkrik*

Okay, I think the wisdom *I am not sure if the sentence correct. I am using Google translate for HIKMAH hehehehe* are for me to try hard to score English. Maybe if I get English A I’m not going to type in English for my blog. I’m actually missing Pn. Wan while typing this. She always asking us to make journal during long school holiday then send to her email. She teaches us for using Microsoft Word first to check the grammar then send it to her. Yes, it was like what I’m doing right now. 

Furthermore, this is maybe the right time for me to realize to improve my English. Just looking at how I am not realizing before this. Get C in PT3 but still do not want to improve until get A. Do not have enough effort. Why I feel like I am cursing myself? Huhuhuhu

There is something that Allah gives us to make us better. I believe it. Just keep positive in mind so you will be happier. Smile J I accepted all reprimand by Kak Iqah in Twitter. Sometimes, I tweets in English but sometimes it was the wrong sentence or grammar or spelling. Huhuhuhuhu but it is okay. This is a learning process. I will keep learning.

Actually, learning language is fun. It was not only English but the others language also. Even, I’m not good in others language but at least knew some of their words is fun. The conclusion is keeps learning more language. You can use it when travel around the world. *I’m dreaming* Hihihihi

I want to thanks my entire English teacher that always patient with me. *It was because I’m talking about English subject* Please, do not be offended.

I want to thank Pn. Asnay, Pn. Puspalila, Sir Kesevan, Pn. Ednah, Miss Ooi, Pn. Wan and maybe the others that I can’t remember. I’m really sorry but please do not be offended. However, Thank you and I appreciate all the knowledge that they had gave to me.

💕 THANK YOU ALSO FOR ALL THE TEACHERS THAT TEACH ME FROM I AM IN KINDERGARDEN UNTIL NOW AND FUTURE. THANK YOU ALSO MY FRIENDS WHO ALWAYS SUPPORT ME.

Hostel Life

This picture holds memories for 5 years 

I'm the one yang hantar surat permohonan masuk asrama lambat waktu darjah 6 nak masuk form 1. Fortunately, they accepted Masa dapat surat tawaran time bulan 12, terlompat-lompat ecxited tak sabar nak masuk asrama. Excited beli barang itu ini yg tak tahan tulis nama kat semua benda  HahahaXD

Minggu pertama masuk asrama, okay dah rasa nak balik sebab orientasi yang sangat padat  Masa tu, setiap malam aku berdoa "YA ALLAH, AKU HARAP AKU DAPAT TAHAN DUDUK SINI SAMPAI FORM 5"

Masa form 1 laa masa aku kenal nama semua orang penghuni asrama dari form 1 sampai form 5  Masuk form 5, hehehe aku rasa ingat muka jee kot  Maaf ️ Baru aku tau rupanya entah2 form 5 time aku form 1 tu tak kenal pun aku  

Masa form 1, dapat dorm Balqis. Atas sekali tapi masa tu redha jaa. Mulanya, dorm ni ada 8 org ahli tapi last sekali tggl 5 org jaa. Yang best, dapat loker bnyk  Disebabkan dorm ni laa, akhirnya rapat dengan FAEQAH FURAIRAH  Aku ingat lagi hari last day kita ubah katil bagi rapat semata-mata nak bagi semua dpt tidur beside each other dan hari last tu Faeqah nyanyi lagu dkt aku. Tapi aku tak ingat lagu apa dah Makin hari dh boleh rapat dgn ahli dorm dgn ahli dorm sebelah. Paling best part main dlm tandas baling belon, part izzah dgn nab gaduh, Izzah cerita pasal kampung dia, nyanyi dlm dorm dan bnyk laa lgi.

Masa form 2, dapat dorm  BALQIS AGAIN ! ATAS SEKALI AGAIN  Tapi ahli dorm masa ni ramai yg sama batch so terubat laa luka nak panjat tangga tu. Even masa tu geng dgn Izzah, Faeqah, Dina duk kat tingkat 2 tpi aku suka jaa duk atas tu. Masa form 2, kawan dkt sek org lain, dlm dorm lain, dkt bilik prep lain. Act, Im happy with that situation  

Masa form 3, dorm SITI MARIAM  Masa ni dh jdi pling senior dh dlm dorm  4 org form 3, 4 org form 1. Yang bestnya, dorm ni sebelah bilik iron maka rajin sangat aku iron baju  Dorm ni jugak adalah di tingkat 2 maka bertambah best 

Masa form 4, dorm ZULAIKHA  Ahli batch sama dengan waktu form 3  Tak sangka. Tapi yang paling takut duk dorm tu aku dengan Izzah (manusia paling hingaq). Sebab kedudukan dorm tu sgt tak strategik utk kami even tingkat 1. Menghadap aspura dan dkt dgn rumah warden  Akhirnya, berjaya juga melalui saat tu selama setahun  Ahli masa ni pun 4 org form 4, 4 org form 1. Mulanya, masa ni Faeqah dapat sebelah dorm aku tapi budak ni pilih jalan hidup nk pindah p sbp maka rasa laa sat berjiran dgn dia. Yg pasti masa ni budak dorm sebelah ramai yang pindah  

Time flies so fast, Finally, I am Form 5  

Aku dapat dorm yang PALING AKU NAK ! Dorm UMI KALSOM  Dorm ni adalah dorm paling strategik. Tingkat 1, sebelah bilik iron, dekat bilik prep, jauh drpd rumah warden. Bahagia benoo dapat dorm ni. Part paling best, tengah tahun dapat dorm Form 5 satu dorm  ANIS NAJWA, FARAH BAT ahli yg mula. Lepastu, HAZIMAH, DALILA, IRDINA, NABILA. Lepastu, HAYATI, SYAKIRAH  Sangat bahagia hidup dengan manusia2 ni yang sentiasa kelaparan  Paling best, pernah dpt no 2 main Bola Jaring antara dorm Even masa tu, majoriti yg main tgh puasa . PALING PALING PALING BEST  DEPA (form 5 aspuri) BUAT SUPRISE BIRTHDAY DEKAT AKU 🤣 HAHAHAHA SUKANYA DAPAT KEK TU YANG SUKA  THANKS  Tapi takleh lawan birthday Nab laa  Nak buat suprise pun keluar bilik prep masuk balik sbb CUT. Nasib tak kantoi  Baling belon ada air, belon dlm locker haa dh tu jaa takyah lebih 

Banyak sangat kenangan time form 5  Tak tertype tapi In Shaa Allah ingat di ingatan ️

YANG PASTINYA, DOA AKU TIME FORM 1 TU TERMAKBUL  Its happen  Semoga yang lain pun tabah  Good Luck and enjoy your journeys  You'll going through a lot of happiness and sadness but trust me Asrama SeNi is not bad at all  Setakat yang aku duduk laa start 2017 I dont know tapi takpe teruskan jee laa. Aku pun setiap tahun doa cepatlaa habis dan sekarang macam biasa laa RINDU  

Thanks for all the moments, friends 

Yang daripada aku form 1 sampai form 5.

Daripada senior hingga ke junior, Terima kasih kerana terlibat dalam kisah aku dekat asrama selama lebih kurang 1825 episod termasuk Sabtu Ahad dan cuti sekolah bulan 12 *ye laa sepanjang dlm ingatan masa tu* Minta maaf andai terkasar bahasa, terbuat marah tanpa sengaja, terbagi sakit hati, terbuat menyampah dan segala kesalahan. Doakan kejayaan Nurul Asyiqin Fatini Binti Sharaan dan kawan-kawan yang terlibat di dunia dan akhirat ️

I'm writing this on December 2016. Actually, I want to post it in Instagram but too much sentence so I make it short and some words were not included. This is the full version :)

Ups and Downs

Assalammualaikum J

This is my story after a week maybe. I’m sharing this to motivate myself and as a reminder that things are not going easy always. It has ups and downs.

Is it okay for me to share about my result? I find it’s hard if I’m not telling the truth. The story will be confusing. Let’s start it! *kind of excited but T_T*

To be honest, I’m targeting straight A’s. I know it’s hard because during the exam I never had that result. Hahahaha. I’m challenging myself but of course I also had another target which is seem logic to achieve it. I put another target which is more than 7A’s. People keep saying target the highest one so that if you can’t get it at least you get the nearest one. Shoot for the sky if you don’t get it at least you will get the star.-Pn.Hasni told us from what she heard- *I’m translating it and I’m not sure if it sky or star or moon but it something like that.*

On 16 March 2017, SPM result came out. Phewwwww. The time has come. Teacher calls the name who gets 8A’s and above. I’m waiting…… Next, teacher calls those who were straight A’s. I’m waiting….. I’M CRYING LIKE A BABY T_T :p There’s no my name. Okay, let’s move on to the next target which is 7A’s. I’m lining up to take the result from my class teacher. Suddenly, there was an announcement “People who are getting 6A’s and above please give your name in front of the hall and get the invitation card to Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang.” Okay. Pn. Puziah gave my result. I got…… Say Alhamdulillah first before I’m crying or feel like does not grateful. I got 1A+ 3A 1A- 5B+ J

ALHAMDULILLAH J Truthfully, that is THE BEST RESULT OF MINE. Yeahhh. Well, I’m actually sad for not reaching my target but there’s always HIKMAH. Teachers asked my result and I will say 5A and smile even though I had cried badly while hugging Dekya. Hahahaha Then, Ustazah Huzaimah asked me. Why my answers towards Ustazah “5A jaa?" Ustazah “Jaa?” I’ll be like “Ustazah, saya syukur saya syukur” HAHAHAHAHA Well, at that time and the whole day I’m realizing. Kihkihkih

However, people always said don’t look a person who gets more than us. Your gratitude will be lost. Still remember the award ceremony? For sure, I’m not deserved to go for the award ceremony. To be honest, I’m looking the others person's results. The main reason I am sad because I cannot be with my classmate there. Second, there were many hostel students there. I had a big dream to go up on the stage with them. Its look like my sustenance was not there. I’m praying hard to go there with them but mine was not included. On that day, I need to keep calm and don’t acts like a childish. I decided to log out all of my social media account. I do not want to hurt others.

My heart keeps hurt because most all of my classmates were going there. Other than that, I am one of the persons who achieved the award in PT3. While looking the others members who also received the award in PT3 and also SPM. I’m very down. I’m not trying to be ripple or what. As I said, I’m expressing my feeling. I know why Allah gives this to me. It has been 2 month from that day. I think I had move on. Why I’m still sharing this story even I had move on? Next paragraph I TOLD YOU!

I have a lot to share of my feelings but I think I need to make it short. Actually, I want to share what that I had motivate myself. To be honest, I’m not motivating myself in one day but it almost until now. Yes, I had move on but….. I just want to always remind myself.

Here is what I’m thinking. Allah had given me a lot of achievement in studies. I think the best moment for a child of their achievement is UPSR. A child takes time to move on more than teenagers. You can think that there were more chances in future but a child is full of emotion. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me the good results. Even though, my name was not listed in SBP or MRSM but I grateful to stay in SeNi. *please be proud SeNi’s students* Secondly, I’m not targeting for PT3 because on that time the system is still new and we were still confusing but Alhamdulillah Allah gave me more than what I expected.*not straight* With the result, teachers let me stay in that perghhhh class. It is extremely hard to fight with them. In Form 5, many times I got 20 and above (i mean in class) T_T. HAHAHAHAHA Just focusing on positive sides. When I’m blurring they can help me and the healthy competition even in the end I’m still thinking that I’m lose but never mind. Just keep the good memories in our mind.

In SPM Allah test me. Allah tests because He wants us to always pray for Him. I should be grateful for all the achievement that I had received. Maybe for this time, I did not get from what I want because Allah knew that maybe I’ll be riddle. I’m hoping I’m not like that. People can change right? 5B+ is a moral for me to more hardworking. THIS TIME I CAN THINK THAT THERE WERE MORE CHANCES IN FUTURE. If I cannot be what I want maybe I’ll awarded a perfect husband. Ehemmmmmm out of story :p 

It’s actually hard to express feeling here. Typing in English. Blerghhhh -,- You want to hear with more feel like I want to lecture ohh you can contact me through Twitter @nrlasyiqinftni. DM me and I’ll whatsapp to you using voice. HAHAHAHA Actually, what I want to share my thought I had express it to Hidayah through whatsapp. It was when both of us cannot move on. Hehehehehe. #promotepromote :P *DM need followback ask followback* Hewhewhew 

 Please don’t misunderstand. Yes, I can write it in the diary *I had written* but I’m sharing here to express my feeling. Otherwise, I need some motivation. Things are going hard for me to motivate myself. There are maybe some people like me. Receive more achievement then one day Allah test you. I hope all of us can be positive. PRAY THE BEST FOR ALL OF US <3 

THANK YOU FOR THOSE WHO GAVE ME STRENGTH ON THAT DAY  <3
KAK IQAH
FAEQAH
HIDAYAH
FAJWA
IZZAH